in my age what I've found out is that humane life is too short and it's not any time for loosing or wasting my ex-wife was a horrible mistake during my life and fixing that mistake got a lot of time and opportunities which never ever i can not have them again also feeling as well as living alone in 40 years old would hurt anybody seriously . the only way now is making a new and suit relationship with a correct person what exactly I'm looking for...